Epiphany

Apr. 29th, 2017 11:40 pm
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My period showed up today, a rare and surprising event because the birth control I'm on means that I have only a few every year.

Usually they're pretty easy to manage but occasionally I have one that reminds me why I started taking the birth control in the first place. I used to be one of those people who'd miss a day of work a month with them. Missing a 5k obstacle course seems even more understandable.

But I'd been eating myself up about it. I worried that I wasn't "really" sick, or not sick "enough," that it's "just anxiety," that I was making excuses... This is common enough but I think it was especially bad because I was missing an exercise thing. The most virtuous of all things, exercise!

Skipping that wasn't just bad in a "I've already paid for this" sense, or a "I'm supposed to be doing this with my friend" sense, but in a moral sense. I try very hard not to attribute Goodness and Evil to various habits but obviously I'm failing miserably at that based on my reaction here. I know it's illogical but if you could logic yourself out of what society has ingrained into you, the world would be a very different place.

It might also explain part of why my emotions have felt so uncontrollable lately. Obviously some of that is legitimate--life has been demanding and stressful--but I've also been unsettled at the feeling that these reactions are unusual for me. That's been going on for too long to be PMS, but it means it's likely things are not as thoroughly awful as I'd imagined. Which is good, because everything has seemed pretty bleak lately and it'd be great to be wrong about that.

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Date: 2017-04-30 12:26 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] miss_s_b
*hug*

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Date: 2017-04-30 12:32 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] theandrewhickey
I think also you might have been more emotional than usual because *I've* been more emotional recently, and you've had to do more work looking after me than you should have had to.

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Date: 2017-04-30 06:30 am (UTC)
norfolkian: Holtzmann from Ghostbusters licking a gun (Default)
From: [personal profile] norfolkian
I haven't actually missed work through my periods, but have come close. I do sometimes have to drag myself in and just feel awful all day. And I hate that I often don't feel I can even mention that I'm feeling ill/under the weather because of my period. It does seem to have gotten a little better in recent months, though.

I used to be on the pill, but had to stop taking it because I started getting migraines. while the pill helped with some aspects of my menstrual cycle, since stopping it, I've on the whole felt better and come to realise some other side effects that it was having that I'd never connected it with. I've therefore been a bit wary of taking any other form of hormonal contraceptive since. But the only having a few periods a year thing sounds good.

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Date: 2017-04-30 09:14 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] barakta
Boo to uteruses but yay to an explanation for sickness which will hopefully pass swiftly. PMS "everything is awful" is horrible.

I am with you on self doubt, I find it hard to trust myself even though I'm actually good at recognising health issues even if I don't know which cause to attribute it to (e.g. vestibular fail can be PMS or overload).

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Date: 2017-04-30 07:45 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sfred
*sympathy*

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Date: 2017-05-01 10:03 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] jackjanderson
Obviously, I've never experienced menstruation but I'm a firm believer of 'bleeding continuously for a number of days' is a perfectly good excuse for missing out on anything, especially a strenuous physical activity. I have however experienced the emotion related side effects from this side and hope they calm down for you sooner rather thab later

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Date: 2017-05-01 08:22 pm (UTC)
jesse_the_k: Extreme closeup of dark red blood cells (Blood makes noise)
From: [personal profile] jesse_the_k
*tons of sympathy*

adding the heavy weight of morality into the anxiety backpack is no fun.

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